Even though becoming a mom has thoroughly changed my life even more than I expected, it is still pretty great. The mom part is awesome, it's really just everything else that is confusing.
I resigned from my job at the end of January, (Theo was 3 months old). I miss it so much! It was my first job after graduating and it was pretty amazing. My official title was Administrative Assistant in the Office of Cultural Development for the City of Pittsfield, MA. But really, it was much more than that. I organized artist information for art shows and public art (ie art that exists on the sidewalks, in parks, and other fun places). I was at all of the installations and de-installations and emergencies (art falling from the trees!). I also was the Coordinator of 3rd Thursday, a monthly street fair. And I started a TV show about what was going on in Pittsfield on the local public channel.
Why did I resign from such a fun job?! Several reasons:
1) My lease was up and I couldn't afford my apartment anymore, and I was wait-listed for public housing
2) Stress. I worked with artists, city employees (bureaucrats!) and the public. All are very demanding
3) Not energy/mental clarity to be both a mom and work a stressful job.
4) Living alone and an hour from family
So, I did the unthinkable and moved in with my mom. I had been in college/my own place for the past six years or so and was hesitant to move back.
It just sounds so lame too. Two years ago, I was a new college graduate with a great job, a cool apartment, and I was going to travel the world, and I was going to have an amazing career, etc.
Who am I now?!
A single mom, unemployed, living with her mom...(I try not to read that as loser but sometimes that word just glares out at me)
lol...good job, that was much less negative! /sarcasm.
ReplyDeleteCheer up :) I will tell you that my mother now wishes she had been able to ditch my father and go back home to her mother, but it was too late.
You are fortunate, although it may not seem it sometimes, to have family who are willing and able to help you out.
Think of it as a nice little break from the workforce and cherish it for now :)